I love my Daddy, I love my friends!

I love my Daddy:
I had lunch today with the Daddy, and he lied to my mom that he was shopping at Wal-Mart (hahahaha). We were talking about when I was going to graduate and I was in the process of confessing that I wasn't going to get a job right away and that I wanted to travel.
So I asked him how long he was a ship captain for, (if you didn't know, my daddy was a ship captain and traveled le world!). He said, "Seven years. For seven years.." And I said,
"Dad.. after I graduate I want to travel the world. Then.. i might try to get a job in Japan."
Dad: "Okay"
Me: "Have you been to India?"
Dad: "Yes. But don't go there, it's better to go to Bali, Indonesia."
Me: "You've been there?!"
Dad: "Yes. And Europe is too cold. After you graduate we'll go to the Philippines, so I can see my sisters, ok?"
Me: "OK!"
Then we started to talk about traveling and all the places my dad has gone and where I should go. And how I'm going to spend six months working fulltime before we travel so I can pay off my bills and such.
Talking to my dad about traveling almost made me cry in the restaurant, because he didn't judge e on where I should be going, or what i "should be" doing. He just accepts me, and my decisions and that makes him the best daddy ever. :)

I love my friends:
Yesterday I was explaining to one of my male friends how much weight I lost this past week with Weight Watchers, and.. he's been with me with all my dieting endeavors. And he only had to say one thing.."You, know, I'm so proud of you."
When there are friends out there who want you to do good, and guys who back you up like that through whatever? It's probably.. no.. it is, the best feeling one can ever go through..

OH. HELL. YEAH.

It was better than I expected, oh yeah. That's right. I LOST 6.4lbs this week. And guess what's been helping me lose it? That's right, Taco Bell. LOL.

YES.. F. YES!!

Fun times!

I've been feeling really good this week, like REALLY good.
I weighed myself today, a day premature of my official weigh in, and if numbers are correct on my scale (which, i hope to god they are) I would have lost 5.4lbs. haha, oh god i hope that's what shows up tomorrow.

I've been working out like crazy. I went to the gym last night, did 45min of cardio and an extra 30 min of strength and resistance training. When im doing strength training.. im also gaining more confidence.. i can actually watch myself in the mirror while doing my moves and not feel like a complete fat slob.. which is good.. lo. My clothes are loose and look kinda funny on me... :D!!!!

This time last year I was doing an hour on the elliptical, and so far right now only about 20 min. lol. I'm increasing my running/jog everyday.. which is good. I'll probably take Alex Longs advice (triathlon/marathon running friend) on going to Fit-2-Run in the International mall.. apparently they have expensive ass shoes, but they'll size and fit your foot for free. Which is good, because my shoes are not that awesome.

I just finished eating lunch here, in the Physical Education building at USF, yummy! Haha they don't sell food here, but I save money (and calories) by bringing my own frozen food entree`. This is the only building i know of (minus dorms) that has a microwave in their rec room (i also noticed all the Phys. Ed majors are constantly fuckin eating!)
My Smart ones frozen meal was suprisingly large... which brings me to ...

FOOD OF THE WEAK!
Is anything that isn't proper portion sizes. Holidays is a different thing, but eating a shitload just because you have it? don't do it. Unfortunately when I tried to do a search for "comfort food"... guess what was popping up the most? Not comfort food at all (homemade suff), but McDonalds and KFC n shit! how ridiculous. Remember... this looks good, but not on your thighs.



FOOD FOR THE STRONG!haha..
I took this picture right before I devoured it, but it is Roast Turkey Medallions and delicious wild rice. There was so much rice, it was pressing up against the plastic film. Really filling, almost didn't finish it.. and if you're following Weight Watchers, it's only 4 points. (For relevance, i have a bank of 34points a day, and a cup of BROTH soup at Panera is 4-5 points). When the portion is measured for me, i realizr i fill up quicker... just because there is food on the table, doesn't mean you have to eat it.



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On other news, Keith and I are going to go out to grub this weekend and possibly see My Bloody Valentine in 3D!!!!! WHO IS SO EXCITED?! THIS GIRL!!! And i'm not sure what i'm more excited about.. Keith.. or the movie... lol

This seems to be a routine...

Two days before the weight in again!
haha i'm a lot more confident this time around, however. Also, I don't keep track of my points as diligently as I should be, but I know i'm staying at the point level. If i feel that i've gone over, I just work out. No biggie. Which is awesome! :D

I haven't had much of an appetite lately, so it's been pretty hard to read my goal points to begin with.

on to other news..
On Monday I hung out with Chris DeLoucas and the whole www.GnATV.com crew and ate at Acropolis, this delicious and cheap greek place in Tampa. If you spend at least $10 on food (their food is pretty cheap), you get either a free Hookah or 10% off with your student ID, which is awesome.

Definately Check out www.GnATV.com!!!!! If you're near the Tampa Bay area, you. will. not. regret it.

After a couple chats with the waitress and getting a couple things set up, the boys might have me run their street team! :D nHoooorah, another extracurricular activity!

Speaking of activities, I've been talking to this guy named Keith. He's... pretty weird..haha, but mostly pretty cool and funny. He likes to call and text me to keep updated, which is sweet. We already had an argument about something (haha, guess who normally starts them? hahahaha) but I was thoroughly impressed on how he handled it, which made me like him a little more.
He's really cute, and sort of looks like Matthew Lillards little punk brother, if he had one. He's blonde with light eyes and covered in tattoos... first blonde guy i think i've ever been interested in. But.. whatever, it's nothing big, let's see how it goes. :)

I'll update next on my weigh in!!! Time to shower... i love procrastinating. lol.

Weight In

As you can see, my ticker moved a little further! YESSSS.. at my last weight in i lost 1.2lbs. But i know.. i KNOW i can lose more than that in a week.

I don't realize im losing weight until I actually look at my ticker. Which is GREEEAAAT!

I've been raiding all the grocery stores for all their deals this week: Publix had 50% off Smart Ones, Target had 4 for $7, and Wal Mart had a 'Price Cut', so my freezer is stocked with goodies! I've been doing so well that I hope it lasts :S

After work today I was going to go work out by myself at my jobs gym, however!!!!! I had two friends who were getting off an hour after me, so i waited and we all went together! We all did 30 minutes of cardio, then 30-40 minutes of strength training and weights. It was sooo awesome, i feel like I really got a lot accomplished today.

I think that's my favorite word. Accomplished. Because it makes everything feel and seem better, because it normally is! How about I bring food of the day back? or at least food of the week! I'll start doing food of the week during the entries of my weigh in.. that sounds great! Omg.. how about the weekly food of the strong!!!!??? hahahaha you'll see

FOOD OF THE WEAK!!!!
Even how delicious and beautiful regular ice cream is... think about how beautiful that's going to look on your thighs as dimples. MHMM thats what i thought.


FOOD FOR THE STRONG
A great alternative? Sorbet! It looks just as beautiful and delicious, but way healthier. Look, this one is made out of pomegranate! The ultimate strong food, yuuuum


hehe, hope to update soon! Have a great weekend you guyses!

hmmm Jet setting

So Spring Break is coming up, which is freakin exciting!

However. There are tickets on sale for NY, NY for only $76 EACH WAY. shut. up.
Who wants to come with me? lol

I am looking up places to fly to instead of doing my homework. :(

Im such a procrastinator.

i didn't have a good weight watcher week either. Tomorrow is supposed to be my weight in, but i think i'll wait til Friday. That meeting is so much more up beat. Plus i'll have two extra days to loose some baggage.

I'll definitely update on how that'll go.

180

hehehe
I totally lost a little bit more weight, i'm so excited!!!

Kadie mentioned a marathon in Ireland in 2010.. I want to do it.

I've been looking up tips and talking to people that I know who run marathons and triathlons.
So if you have any information, just let me know!

I'm just gonna keep running to my goal, because I totally know I can do it.

Kadie, Alisha and I worked out the other day at the gym, and my thighs and glutes are KILLING ME.
And every time they start to feel better i either have to go up or down a set of stairs, and they start throbbing again.

My brother and sis-in-law got me a gift certificate at some massage spa in Tampa, i'm going to have to use that soon. :)

Well, another pound + down, much more to go. One step at a time, baby.

Today Was.... EVENTFUL!

And I loved it!
First things first... noticed the Hula girl?! I totally lost some weight at my last weight in! However, I did go to Cici's Pizza this week, and my weight in week is a lot shorter (because im weighing in on Wednesday as opposed to Friday) so Kadie and I are busting butts tomorrow.

Now, todays events!
I cleaned my apartment. It looks AWESOME. The christmas tree is finally down, i rearranged a couple things, and vacuumed, swept and mop. So, I am very pleased with myself when I walked in and saw how nice my place looked after a long day.

After I cleaned my apartment, I left for St. Pete:
view from the top of St. Pete Pier facing BayWalk
I met Daveed at his place, and he took me down the scenic route towards the pier. It was literally the scenic route, because on our way there there were signs that said, "scenic route". lol.
We walked on the pier instead of taking one of their free trolleys, and we adventured through all 4 floors of the building at the end of the pier. They had a mini aquarium on the 2nd floor, restaurants on the 1st, 3rd and 4th floor.
We took these pictures on the first floor viewing area:
Right behind us in this picture there were a lot of people eating outside because there was a sweet Puerto Rican live band there.
We proceeded to go to the 4th floor, where the picture of BayWalk and the whole Pier was taken, and Daveed and I took this:
(behind us is where we took the previous two pictures.)

After the Pier, we went to Bay Walk and had a slice of pizza to calm the tummies.
THE WEATHER WAS PERFECT. There is no other way to describe the weather today. It was sunny, but not blinding, it wasn't cold, but it wasn't terribly sweatingly hot. It was windy, perfectly windy. So we ate outside the pizzarias awning, right next to a terrace with a water fountain and shrubbery. The courtyard was a mosaic of cobblestone and brick. The pizzaria even had a scooter for deliveries. It didn't feel like we were in Florida. I wish Justin could've came, because he would've LOVED the pizza there and the weather.

Daveed and I planned next time that hopefully more people would come so we could rent a 6-person bike carriage. A lot like this one (the only picture i could find without people riding it, and this one is for a 2 person, so add tow more sets of seats in the back):

Afterwards, Daveed and I drove over to Tampa to watch Twilight. IT WAS AWESOME. :)

Today was pretty awesome. A lot of firsts.. first visit to the Pier and BayWalk and Twilight!

School is pretty much amazing...

I love it! it's too much fun, but too much work. :(

I sit next to Angela in one of my classes, which is very exciting. I love her to death.
Today was pretty busy.

I had class then an hour to spare, so i watch a couple episodes of "The Office" on my laptop in this resource room i found. What is cool is that the "resource room" had a pong table, fooseball table a microwave and more. so i actually brought a frozen dinner for lunch and microwaved it on campus. it was tooo cool.

And since i didn't have headphones, people eventually started watching my show with me. haha.

I then saw my little sister at her school... and I haven't seen her in over a month. She's getting slightly better with her reading, but her division skills kinda really suck. I'm going to try to find some flashcards for those.

I went BACK to school and had my other humanvariation/race in culture class then hauled off to work.

I like being busy. But i don't like that I feel as though there's not enough time in the day to do everything that I want to. :(

Speaking of, i'm working a 9hr shift tomorrow, but i have to go to Weight Watchers to get weighed in. It's my first weigh in after I started, so hopefully the little hula girl on my scale (top of page) will be moving soon!!! EEK.

hopefully.. haha



Things are obviously doing better. I believe that the past is the past, and that I can only grow from here.

School Starts Tomorrow

Excitement is slowly building, especially since I don't know how i'm going to be paying for my parking ticket.

My schedule is just as busy as it was last semester, but on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I have a 3 hour break between classes.. and I looked at the schedule at the Yung Ho Tae Kwon Do school, and guess what? They have an adult class that fits PERFECTLY in the break. People in my second class at school are going to have to deal that I smell like shit AND I could kick their ass. ha.

Things are doing better with Justin, now that I know he'll actually talk to me again.
I think im looking forward to his Christmas present more than he is... because i'm going shopping too.

I hope everything gets back to "normal".. the relationship without the title or sleeping over.
I'm actually very grateful that we never had sex, because that would've been a LOT more awkward trying to be friends.

Angela is coming over today for our first Bum Day. We've been planning this day since the beginning of last semester, but our schedules always collided. Angela and I also have another class together this semester, SO EXCITED. I love this girl sooo much.

I bought her coasters that look like little rugs (because she wanted them badly) they were 4 coasters for what? $20!!!!!!!! jesus. christ. most expensive coasters i've seen in my life.
And im about to make her a mixed CD... oh yeah, this is for her christmas presents. We haven;t even had a chance to exchange them yet! ugh.

whatever.
i'm just glad i'm getting some sleep again.

At work again..

this time i'm actually scheduled to be here.

I cried myself to sleep again.
I actually fell asleep, which I was surprised, but Chris called me at 2:30 this morning.
He kept asking how I was doing, and if I was okay. He never asked anything specific, but he always knows when I need to talk to someone or if I need a laugh.
So the break in the middle of my sleep was good.

We decided we were going to start Tae Kwon Do together, because he really wants to do that with me. Which makes me happy, because most people don't want to do my stupid suggestions.

I was planning on working out with Kadie tonight to continue to be busy, and not think so much. But she might have plans with a friend she hasn't seen in a while.

I was leaving for work today and when I was gathering my belongings to go, I got a knock on the door. For a split second I thought and hoped it was Justin. It wasn't.
It was verizon making sure my internet worked. I'm just glad he was there before school started.

Quincy, the Verizon guy, looked at me funny. And he tried to hold a conversation like he knew there was something wrong, or I was sad about something. It was nice of him. Now that I have access to unlimited movies, i have a feeling this semester is going to be a lot like last summer.
Lonely, locked in my room, glutonous and inactive.

Blank

I am.. in my cubicle at work right now.
Except that i didn't work today, and it's 11:22pm on New Years night.
I can't sleep, or do anything by myself because I spontaneously combust into tears.
So i'm sitting next to Kadie. Blank.

Marielena offered to buy me a ticket to NY for next weekend, so I can cry out of state. that was sweet.

School is about to start, i'm not really excited anymore.

I went to bed around 3:30am and woke up at 5am. I think i stained karens couch pillows with my smeared makeup. and i'm pretty sure i didn't wake anyone up with my sobbing.

I haven't eaten all day, and I haven't really talked. Mari said I should write in my journal, so i am.

I thought about visiting Daynes grave and talking to him. He never really judges, or gives advice when he was alive.. but i've also never been to his grave since he passed. so. not really a good day to start.

My dad knows there's something wrong.. i think my mom too, but they're not sure what. I feel hallow. I was in my apartment earlier for about 2 hours. I didn't know bawling could last that long. I'm pretty sure I hate my life.

I'll write tomorrow, whether i want to or not. It sort of feels right.